Wonderings and Wanderings

Homunculous
Oh, man, I'm blanking about what to write about. Whoah, yeah, I'm totally blanking. I found myself in a good mood this morning, and that's nice. I've been getting lots of synchronicities in my life these days, and sometimes I wonder what that's about when that happens. But it usually doesn't lead to anything; it's usually just a wave that comes and goes. Strangely, they've been really thick, and they come at me in this rapid-fire sort of way. And they seem to be more meaningful than previous waves of them. And then I think to myself, "What's it all mean?" and then I think it's stupid to think stuff like that, cuz it's really hard to put cosmic happenings into a nice, neat, compact, little human box of meaning. So, I guess I'll try and not do that, cuz it doesn't usually lead to anything. It's like, yes, there's meaning, but it's probably on a grander scale, or something along those lines. It's like, the wave of synchronicities I observe is really this teeny tiny fragment of a much larger picture, or something like that. I'm dumb.

I must follow my new power animal into those other realms that I often visit but of which I'm unaware. It's kind of frustrating to know I'm always visiting other realms, but I don't know it. No, I didn't make that up; a reliable source told me, years ago, and it made much sense. But, it's tuff, too, cuz my consciousness doesn't go along for the ride, so how can I learn from these experiences that are happening to other parts of my psyche in these shamanic realms? Then I think about how dumb consciousness is, anyway, how it's really just the dumb, problem-solving part of our brain that really ain't all that tuned into universal consciousness. And yet, it's the only vehicle through which I know how to tell my own story. I wish that gosh-darn little homunculous inside me could join up with the rest, so we could really see what the fuck's going on.

Then, I think, am I allowed to talk about power animals on the internet? But, then I realize, well, I met this one on the internet, so that's probably okay.

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