Trying Too Hard

It started raining just a few minutes ago today. I'm sort of glad it waited till it did, cuz otherwise, I'd've been running out in the rain. Whoops - headache. I think it'll probably go away, though.

Oh, my. There's a button you can push to make this entry "sticky." I had to look it up and see what it meant. Apparently, it means that it'll be at the top of the page, no matter what. I dunno if I could deal with that kind of pressure, you know. Like, if I knew this entry would be the first thing people look at, for all time, I'd feel like, okay, okay, man. I gotta write something good. I gotta write something really good. But, that means, well, you know. It would turn out the opposite of that. Because every time I try to do a good job at something it always comes out bad. It's better to not try at all, but then it gets really tricky, cuz as soon as you know that trying hard makes everything suck, then it's hard not to try so hard. So then you gotta try hard not to try hard. That's where I keep on getting stuck. It's like, oh, my. How do I make it so I don't care about anything so I can do good at it? How? How??????? Fuckity fuck, man.